Showing posts with label Shem. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Shem. Show all posts

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Chapter Forty

Danger on the Ark

“But from this day on I will bless you.” Haggai 2:19

Atarah huddled with the women in a corner of the room as far from the thumping sounds as possible. A familiar fear crawled across her brain like a long slow slug. Dagaar. The fear whispered his name. Dagaar. Even here. Even here on the ark Dagaar could find her.
A work-hardened hand squeezed hers, and Shem’s mother’s face crinkled into a comforting smile. “Don’t worry, dear. It’s nothing but a lost animal,” she whispered. But Atarah smelled the fear that belied her words. Eudocea encircled Atarah’s waist with a trembling arm and drew her close.
Japheth quickly collected whips and the men approached the door en masse, knives in one hand whips in the other. Atarah’s eyes found Shem. The muscles in his jaw were corded tight and he marched toward the door with spine-stiffened determination ahead of his brothers and father. Fearless. He was protecting her again. Heat rushed up her neck and spread into her cheeks.
Father nodded at Shem and gestured toward the door. Shem eased it open a crack.
Immediately, a massive reptilian head poked into the room, eye level with Shem. Time stood still for Atarah as man and beast stared at one another, nose to nose. After a moment, Shem recovered himself and gave the head a swift bonk with the flat of the door. The reptile yelped and withdrew. Shem slammed the door and dropped the latch into place.
Atarah sucked in a relieved breath and held it for a moment before blowing the air quietly out through her lips.
“Should’ve cut a peephole in that door,” Ham quipped. The room rocked with laughter.
“Sounded like a wounded puppy,” Eudocea snickered, adding to the hilarity. 
“That was just a harmless dragon.” Shem’s Mother touched Atarah’s back in a reassuring gesture. “Big and scary-looking, though. I’m ashamed to confess I’m still shaking.”
“Nothing to be afraid of,” Shem’s voice close to Atarah jolted her heart into a quivering drumbeat. She glanced up and he grinned. “That kind cowers in the lotus blossoms in a lake about halfway down the other side of the mountain. Ever see one before?”
“Once as a child when I traveled in a caravan with my father,” Atarah responded. “For his business. He’s a merchant dealing in exotic goods.” She was aware Shem’s presence had driven away her fear and replaced that negative emotion with a furry  warmth. “What happens if one of the dangerous dragons shows up?”
“Already did,” Shem said. The other men had claimed wives and the pairs meandered off to other parts of the living area, leaving Shem and Atarah to talk. “A Tyrannosaurus wandered onto the ark yesterday and Japheth found the pair of them in a cage downstairs waiting to be locked in.”
She stared at him open-mouthed. “Truly?”
“Truly.”
“Just like that?”
“Bizarre, isn’t it?”
She nodded.
            “Lots of bizarre things here lately.” He guided her to one of the rooms stacked with firewood she’d seen earlier and picked up an armload of logs for the fire. “Pairs of all sorts of animals have rambled up the ramp, found an empty room and gone inside where they could be alone.”
            Like she’d like to be with Shem. Atarah’s cheeks scalded at the unbidden thought.
            “Father has been telling us for years that when the time came, two of every animal would come onto the ark. I just never really believed it would happen.” He carefully arranged the logs on the fire and then walked over to open the door leading to the corridor opposite the one where she’d seen the dragon. “Ventilation,” he explained. “The dragon will find one of the ramps and go to the lowest on the side closest to the ramp.”
            “How many dragons are aboard now?”
            “Maybe half of the fifty different kinds, but a lot of them are no bigger than chickens. Besides there’s nothing to be afraid of. We think all the animals aboard are harmless . . . just for awhile. Just during the Flood. Maybe.” He dropped his gaze and she suspected he worried his words would sound nonsensical to her.
“Chickens can do a lot of damage. A rooster spurred my leg and brought blood on one trip with Father.” She waited until he glanced up quickly, concern etching his face, before she grinned.
His eyes danced as he returned the grin.
“My brothers and father and I have a couple more hours of work to do tonight. You can stay here with the women and have my bed tonight. I’ll sleep in a hay-storage room and see you in the morning.”
“May I go with you?” She couldn’t believe she had the temerity to ask.
“You’re not afraid?”
“Not afraid,” she confidently emphasized the not. What had gotten into her? She’d never been so shameless around a man.
It was just that Shem was wonderful and she felt comfortable around him.  Something told her he would protect her even if the animals in the ark proved wild and dangerous. He had faced Dagaar, a murderous mob and mad rhinos for her, hadn’t he? She felt safer around him than she’d felt in years. Maybe ever. 

“I haven’t seen a giraffe for years,” Atarah said, hands parked on her hips.
The taller of two giraffes leaned against one of the trees in the large space on the lowest level, his chin draped over a high branch. Shem had taken Atarah on a tour through the ark, which was massive. Most of the top two levels, she now knew, were packed with food storage for humans and animals. Noah and his sons had housed a few small animals on the second floor – just a few hundred of the thousands they expected. Shem said they planned to move more animals to the second level as supplies thinned and babies were born. If babies were born. They didn’t really know about that yet. Maybe God would hold off all births until after the Flood.
She helped him check and secure rooms and load feed onto elevators. She did her best not to steal glances at his taut muscles and strong sinews when he hefted hay bales of hay into the lifts. 
Shem paused with a flake of hay poised midair, looked up at the giraffe, then smiled down at Atarah through slitted lids. “Not his eyes. Her eyes. The smaller one is the male. It’s younger.”
“Mother and son?”
“Could be.” Shem blushed. Then laughed. “But I doubt it. The whole purpose of the ark is to rescue two of each species to populate the earth after the Flood. Mother and son may not be the best choice for that.”
“Oh.” Her turn to blush.
He dropped the flake on the floor by the tree and patted the male’s long neck. “You are watching a very unusual event,” he told Atarah. “The female is sleeping.”
“Unusual?”
“Yeah. We aren’t sure yet, but we think giraffes sleep only about half an hour a day.” Even as he spoke, the giraffe opened her eyes and straightened. Shem grinned and cocked his head toward her. “See what I mean? They nap in five minute intervals.”
“Are there any animals on the ark that have offspring with them?”
“No, they’re all breeding pairs.”
“Does that mean the only mother on the ark who has her own children with her is your mother?”
Shem looked surprised. “I guess so.”
“So when the Flood begins she’ll be the only mother with living children left on the entire earth. One of a kind. At least for awhile.”
“Wow. I never thought of that, and here you are on the ark for one evening and you come up with it. I’m impressed.”
Something new bloomed in Atarah’s heart. “I’m not sure anyone has ever been impressed with me before. My mother loved me, but . . . well, city life is difficult.” Suddenly she wished Mother could meet Shem.
He shifted his weight self-consciously and picked at the bark on the tree, visibly nervous. “I’m sorry about your son. I know you wish he could be here with you.”
Tears pricked the backs of her eyelids and she tried to hold back the one squeezing through. She couldn’t. Once the tears started they changed quickly to sobs. Her shoulders heaved. Her nose ran. Shem found a cloth somewhere for her to blow on. After a few minutes she got her emotions under control and looked up. The distress on Shem’s face mirrored her.
“I’m sorry,” he murmured. “I made you feel worse.”
“I don’t need your help to be miserable.” She flashed a smile. “Besides, the tears made me feel a little better, so thanks.” She knew her face was puffy and red and ugly and she couldn’t do a thing about that. “Every time you see me I’m crying.”
“You’re suffering.” His face creased with compassion.
He guided her through the exit and they sat on the floor in the corridor with their backs against a wall. Atarah could think of little except Shem’s closeness. The proximity muddled her brain and made heart beat in her throat. She leaned forward and hugged her knees in order to distance herself to think more clearly, but his scent still distracted her. She closed her eyes. Once she finally found her voice she addressed his mistaken idea that Gadreel was her child. “Actually, Gadreel wasn’t my natural son. He was my nephew.”
 “You risked your life for a nephew! I assumed he was your child.”
 “He was my child. I just didn’t give birth to him,” she said defensively then cleared her throat and softened her tone. “He was my life and I loved him as much as any mother every loved a natural child.” She thought of Nympha and the women in the city who farmed out their children to slaves and sometimes sacrificed them.  “More than most.” She’d tell him the whole story some day, but not now. It was too fresh. Still, there she had to tell him at least one more thing. She wanted the important fact out and over with immediately. She felt a spark with Shem and thought maybe he liked her, too. She had to know if knowing about Gadreel would change that. She needed to know if Shem would hate her for loving a giant.
 “Gadreel was a young giant. The child of my sister and a Nephal, but she didn’t want him. Since I had longed for a child for years, I broke all the rules and cared for him. I loved him desperately.”
Shem paled and she thought he might have passed out had he been standing. Her heart shriveled. “You had no children of your own?” he asked.
“Well no, I . . .” As the implications of his statement dawned on her, a bemused smile quirked one corner of her mouth. “In order to have children you have to marry or . . .” She dropped her gaze, humiliated by her shamelessness. 
Shem jumped to his feet and paced with his fingers laced against the top of his head. “I don’t understand.” She felt as though she was peering into his mind watching him sort through information and store facts away where he could savor them later. “You’re not married?”
“I’m not married.”
“You’re certain?” The poor man paused, stunned.
Her smile broadened. “No. I’ve never even . . . kissed a man.” Her face flamed.
“You’ve never . . . ?” A mishmash of joy, perplexity and outright disbelief tumbled across his face. “I thought all the young woman in your city. . . I mean . . . I thought the temple . . . required . . . those things.”
Though she should have expected he would think that, her cheeks scalded with shame. “I’ve never been inside a temple.” Well, except underground, but that hardly counted and she’d tell him about that another time.
“So you’ve never . . . “
The man couldn’t finish a sentence. Though she couldn’t be certain if he was asking whether she was a virgin or if she had participated in temple rites, the answer would stay the same. She flashed a grin his direction and answered, “No. I never.”
Delight sparkled in eyes which seemed to change from blue to green to hazel and back again. Did the cleft in his chin deepen? The dimple in his left cheek had. He walked slowly to Atarah and reached out strong hands. With those magnificent eyes fused to hers, he drew her to her feet.
“You are so beautiful,” he murmured. His gaze dropped to her mouth and she willed him to touch his lips to hers. Instead, after a long moment he brushed her forehead with a kiss and started toward the stairway. “We should join the family,” he said, huskily. “It’s late and there’s a lot to do tomorrow.”
He waited for her to catch up so they could climb the steps side by side. He didn’t look at her, but halfway to the top he took her hand. Heat from his palm rushed through her arm and spread to her feet. She couldn’t look at him either.
He dropped her off outside his bedroom door. Once inside, she readied herself for sleep and slipped between the smooth sheets, a flame flickering in the oil lamp by the bed. Not as exhausted as the last time she fell asleep in this room, she was able to leisurely admire the intricate carvings, graceful pottery and elegant bed coverings. Her large chambers at home couldn’t compare to this.
She loved this room. She loved this ark. She loved the peace here. She loved Shem’s family. She loved Shem.
Yes. She loved Shem. He was different from any man she’d ever known. Noble. Pure. Handsome. She smiled. She thought he might love her, too, and if he didn’t, at least she affected him deeply.
Strangely, the byproduct of all the love and peace was a change of attitude toward Mother. Though Atarah hadn’t completely forgiven her mother, she didn’t want Mother to die in the Flood, and she longed for Mother to experience the peace filling the ark. But even if Mother chose not to come aboard the ark, Atarah felt compelled to let her know that her daughter loved her, no matter what. Atarah didn’t excuse her mother’s betrayal, and she fully recognized Mother’s weaknesses, but she had already stopped punishing Mother by hating her.
Atarah understood how to navigate the underground without detection now. To avoid risk, she would take her time finding a tunnel up to the city and she’d pray for the One True God to help her every step of the way. And he would. The One True God would keep her safe and bring her back to the ark. Even if accomplishing her goals took a month. More than a month. After that she could return to Shem knowing she’d done the right thing.
With a sigh of contentment, she snuggled into the feather mattress. So why hadn’t he kissed her? She drifted off to sleep in a pink cloud.






























Sunday, October 30, 2011

Chapter Thirty-Nine


No Hope

“And God said to Noah, ‘I have determined to make an end of all flesh, for the earth is filled with violence through them. Behold I will destroy them with the earth.”  Gen. 6:13


While the women bustled about preparing everyone’s first meal in the ark’s family quarters, Shem sat like cold marble in a chair beside the loom fighting a dark depression. Across the room, Father lay on the floor, knees up, pampering his aching back. Japheth snoozed before dinner old-married-man-style splayed out on a couch with his feet propped in a chair. Ham trailed after Eudocea helping with her chores like a love-sick buck. Whatever that meant.
Shem reached for a hank of yarn, sorted out the end and began lethargically winding the fiber loosely around stretched-out fingers. Though he loved his family, cooped up with all these happy people could drive a miserable man crazy. He would need to stay busy to keep sane.
Mother came up behind him and positioned her cheek close to his. “Why don’t you take a little nap? You were up early.” She held doughy hands stiffly while she squeezed his shoulders with her arm, kissed his cheek and returned to her kneading. The well-meaning gesture only made him feel worse. Lonelier. He removed the yarn from his fingers, flipped the loop sideways and wrapped in the other direction, beginning a ball.
From his position he could see the carved door of his room. His ridiculous fancy stupid room. He turned his chair sideways to shut out the embarrassing sight. He no longer needed or wanted it and planned to trade spaces with Ham and Eudocea soon. Tonight. Someone should enjoy his hard work. He’d rather sleep on a pile of hay in one of the food storage rooms than spend time in the place where he’d hoped for so much for so long only to be bitterly disappointed. Time had run out. The family was already on the ark, they wouldn’t be leaving any time soon and a wife wasn’t going to saunter up the ramp calling his name.
His sister-in-laws set platters mounded with fruit and vegetables on the table and called the family. They’d brought freshly picked produce and recently-butchered meat aboard with them this morning. The perishable fruit like peaches wouldn’t last more than a few weeks, but even after that rotted and supplies ran low they’d have abundance. Even after foods changed from fresh to dried and smoked. Even if their time on the ark lasted longer than the year Father predicted.
Shem held back while the rest of the family gathered to eat. He knew his behavior mimicked that of an immature youth, but he couldn’t force himself  to engage in the festivities. He’d make himself do so later. Just not yet. Mother and Father exchanged significant glances.
“Shem, come have a bowl of this delicious goat stew,” Mother urged patting the bench beside her.
“You’ll need the energy,” Father said.
Obviously they knew what he was feeling and were trying to help. Or thought they knew. If they truly understood, they’d know he couldn’t eat. He cast around for a way to avoid sitting at the table with them. Just for tonight. He could see his plight caused them pain and he hated that but . . ., “Uh. My stomach feels sour. I don’t think I can eat.”
“Go lie down,” Father said. Father wasn’t suggesting. He was commanding. “We have work to do tonight.”
Okay then.
With no other choice, Shem drew a resigned breath and stepped inside his room. He reached for the oil lamp by the door and lit the wick. A warm glow suffused the room helping him find the large chair in the far corner of the room. He sank into the chair’s pillows and, hoping not to think of Atarah, closed his eyes.
Immediately, a rustling from his bed startled them back open. His hand moved to the knife at his side and his heart thumped, beating so hard he could feel it in his throat. Holding the lamp before him to light the way he crept toward the bed, following the circle of yellow light.
A woman lay sleeping between his sheets, her soiled robe crumpled on the floor beside the bed. The blue-embroidered tunic showing above the top edge of the linen quilt rose and fell with her soft breathing. Shem’s eyes drank in her delicate features and the line of her jaw. Framed by glossy dark hair, her smooth skin glowed like the pearls studding the embroidery of her neckline. Air locked in his throat. How could she still be so beautiful after all she’d been through?
“Atarah.” He didn’t realize he’d breathed the name aloud until her eyes popped open. He lurched backward. “I’m sorry.” His voice was raspy. He cleared his throat and repeated, “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean . . . I . . .” He should stop talking now. “I’m Shem.” He couldn’t stop talking. “Um . . . I didn’t introduce myself before.”
“My name is Atarah.”
“I know. I heard . . .” He heard the men who killed her baby say her name. Shut up, Shem.
Tension hung in the air between them. Did she have a husband somewhere? Was her husband one of the men trying to kill her? Neither moved or spoke for several seconds. Finally, Atarah pushed herself into a sitting position.
“I’m sorry,” Shem said again. With his gaze still fixed on hers he took a step backward, knowing he should leave the room and give her some privacy, but unable to make himself go. “I should leave you alone.”
“I’m sorry,” she mumbled.
“You stole my line.” He forced a playful grin, hoping to alleviate any fear she might have. They both giggled.
She scooted to the edge of the bed and swung her legs over the side. Shem averted his gaze, his mouth suddenly dry.
“This is your room?” she asked. “Your bed?”
 “Yes.”
“I’ve never slept between more luxurious sheets.” She ran the flat of her hand over the silk. “And this quilt . . .  beautiful. The entire room is remarkable. But I had no right.” Regret shimmered on her features.
“Of course you did.” He longed to tell her that every detail of the room had been crafted for her. Belonged to her. “You’re welcome here.”
Did she have a husband or was the baby conceived . . . ? He couldn’t think that way. God had said she was his wife.
“Not without being invited.”
Shem grinned. “You have to know Father’s been begging people to come onto the
ark for years.”
“I guess he has.” Atarah laughed.
Excitement threatened to burble out of Shem. God had actually brought her here! His wife. And he’d actually spoken to Shem when he told Shem Atarah was his wife --just as he spoke to Father. Maybe not just like he spoke to Father since Shem hadn’t heard an actual voice. Shem could hardly hold his emotions in check.
“Did you create all this?” Atarah asked.
“Just this room.” He’d never seen such thick, long lashes.
“That’s what I meant. This room. Amazing.”
She looked well, but he wondered how she’d fared during the night. Had those men hurt her? Concern overrode his better judgment and he asked a direct question. “Are you all right?”
An overwhelming sadness filled the room making Shem regret he’d asked such a personal thing. Atarah dropped her head and traced the quilt’s stitching with her forefinger. He chided himself, realizing she barely knew him. He shouldn’t have been so intrusive. “Of course you’re not all right,” he apologized. “I shouldn’t have said anything.” What a dolt he was!
“It’s warm in here.” She looked at him as though willing him to understand something difficult to explain.
“My brother built a fire. The heat filters through.”
“No. I mean I have a warm feeling here.” She tapped a hand against her heart, looking him with large sapphire-blue eyes that made his heart flutter. “Your ark feels peaceful -- like a safe haven.”
A blank look must have settled over Shem’s countenance, because Atarah continued. “As soon as I stepped into the ark I knew I was safe.” Apparently she guessed he still didn’t understand. “What did you feel in the city?”
Finally Shem understood. Darkness and oppression characterized that place. “You’re right. I’m so used to the ark I think of the atmosphere here as normal.”
“But it isn’t. Wickedness is normal for the rest of the world.” Her eyes glistened with raw grief. “Like an evil bog threatening to suck you down.”
“You’re right.” Shem longed to pull her into his arms and kiss away the sorrow in those lovely eyes.
“I’m trying to answer your question about how I’m doing.” She tucked a tendril of hair behind her ear. “I feel safe here, so I’m doing better. But I’m still sad and I don’t know if the sadness will ever go away.” Her eyes pooled.
He wanted to comfort her, but he could only say, “I’m sorry.” She twinkled through her tears as he spoke the words. He laughed with her then sobered and said, “I truly am sorry.”
She blinked, and a single tear escaped the fringe of lashes. He wiped away the moisture with his thumb and electricity surged through him.
“This all defies logic,” she murmured. “I’m a stranger here yet I’m home for the first time in my life. The peace is so thick I think I could float.”
He paused to regain his composure. “You’re feeling the presence of the One True God. His protection surrounds the ark.”
Her face lit with joy. “I know! I was pretty sure, but I wanted to hear you say so!” The happiness faded and anguish filled her eyes. “We chased him away from our city when we chose to serve other gods, didn’t we?”
We? She was including herself in those who chased away God. Atarah was telling him that she had been fully integrated into the evil City of a Thousand Gods. He’d dared hope otherwise when he witnessed her try to rescue her son.
His heart tumbled off the mountain of hope and slogged through the swamp of gloom. If she’d grown up in the city, and he assumed she had, how could she be otherwise? He shouldn’t blame her, but he couldn’t help himself. She had chosen false gods and all the depravity required by those monstrous spirits. He needed time to sort through his emotions.
“We told the One True God to get out of our city and leave us alone, didn’t we?” She didn’t intend to let the question slide. She needed an answer.
He hesitated before answering, unwilling to hurt her. “Yes. God allows each of us to choose our own destiny.”
Strangely, his blunt reply calmed her and she reasoned through the situation aloud. “And now it’s too late. Nobody in the city will change.” She narrowed her eyes in thought, “Maybe think they can’t. That’s why the Flood. God has to wash the earth clean with water to cleanse away the evil of the people. Even more so the Nephilim and the giants.”
“You understand the reason for the Flood!” he exclaimed. Atarah had stated the cold facts in a way Shem had failed to see them. She was either very bright or God had revealed the truth to her. Maybe both. He watched her mind continue to click along.
“God is saving the human race by preserving your family on the ark when the water falls from the sky. And Noah is not hiding giants here like everyone says, is he?”
“No.” Shem stared at her in awe. “How do you know all that?”             She hesitated as though afraid he wouldn’t believe her. “Your Father’s God spoke to me. First in dreams and then when I was wide awake last night. Back home I might have tried to convince myself the vision was a hallucination, but here the peace helps me think more clearly. I think evil causes confusion.”
“God told you all that?”
“No. He told me other things. But while I slept, I dreamed about something I heard your Father say and that woke me up. I remembered information from my mother and puzzled everything together before I drifted off to sleep again.”
“You met Father?”
“Once.” She seemed lost in thought for a full minute before looking up at him, eyes shining with hope. “Even when I rejected the One True God, he still loved me. He told me so last night. Since he never left me, maybe there’s still hope for my mother.”
Shem only partially followed her zigzagging logic. He opened his mouth prepared to warn her that just six days remained until the Flood and the time for hope had passed. He started to remind her how unlikely it would be for her mother to come up to the ark on her own as Atarah had. He fully intended to remind her that if she tried to go back to the city to find her mother she’d certainly be killed. Worse, with weather conditions in the valley and city growing worse every day, it would be impossible to get to her mother.
“There’s always hope with the One True God,” he said. Though he knew that her mother and everyone else she’d ever known would die in the Flood in less than one week, he couldn’t bear to hurt her by removing all hope. She’d been through too much.


With Atarah at his side Shem tentatively opened the door and stood waiting for someone to notice. No one looked up. Nothing but the clink of metal on pottery broke the silence as the family ate without the customary jovial conversation. Shem could see that his plight was causing them all pain. Father pointed at a fruit platter still piled high with paw paws, mahogany-colored Jujube and thin sweet-tart slices of quince. Ham scooted the fruit toward him. Father nodded thanks and reached for a fragrant golden-brown paw paw as long as his hand. So like Father. No one in the family cared for the wild-banana flavor of the fruit – not even Father, but he always saved the best of everything for others.
Ham took a persimmon from across the table. He hated paw paws, of course, and would eat Jujube only when it was crisper and yellow with red spots. And he didn’t like quince. At all. Shem wondered if Ham would be a picky eater once the Flood had been under way for a few months.
Shem cleared his throat, inexplicably embarrassed. The six people around the table froze, eating utensils midair, staring at Shem and Atarah open-mouthed.
After a beat, Father jumped to his feet and strode toward them with open arms. “Daughter!” He clutched Atarah’s shoulders and kissed each of her cheeks before standing at arms’ length to examine her, his eyes shifting back and forth over her face as though he wanted to drink in every detail. Atarah’s cheeks flamed.
“I knew God was speaking to your heart!” Father said.
The rest of the family swarmed Atarah, welcoming her. Shem studied her face as she interacted with each of them. The word innocent fit best. And kind. She seemed extraordinarily kind. Even better, her eagerness to hear about the One True God was evident in her face and posture at every mention of his name. She treated Mother and Father with respect. Maybe even admiration. Shem didn’t take long to decide he didn’t care what she’d been, he only cared who she’d become. A woman of character. A woman he could love. Maybe already loved.
A dull thud in the corridor outside the door brought the introductions to a sudden halt. Father held up a hand for silence and Atarah glanced immediately at Shem for reassurance. His palms began to sweat. Not because of the very real possibility of danger, but because of Atarah’s eyes. If necessary, he would give his life for her.
Father gestured the women to the back of the room for safety. Shem wrapped his hand around the knife he always kept at the ready and moved toward the door.